And I feel like crap.
I woke up in uncontrollable tears as I had been dreaming my mother had died. Even typing this now is making me emotional. I don't think I have woken up in such an emotional state since I was pregnant, 16 years ago, when all my hormones were wildly flinging themselves in a hundred different directions.
I think I am having, what I have discovered to be called, the sugar withdrawals, coupled with flu-like symptoms. I'm a cliche!.
So that's ok, I know it will pass. But right now, I feel like I am all over the place. It's actually a good deterrent from falling off the wagon, as I don't want to go through this again. It is also a positive sign, as it is showing me that good things are beginning to happen.
A reader asked me about my hypnosis. I initially went to assist me with my regular binge eating and over eating. My belief of "Why have one cookie, when you can eat the whole packet? Oh and why not down a couple of litres of ice-cream at afterwards too?" philosophy.
But a wonderful side-effect on the positive side of life, has been the fact that I have slept quickly, thoroughly and restfully in the past three nights. Whilst I wasn't exactly an insomniac, I did find it hard to sleep and stay asleep. I'd wake up worrying about certain students in my class and find it impossible to get back to my golden slumbers. I'd wake up, tired, exhausted and wanting sugary toast and other crappy stuff.
I know it's only three days in, but I am optimistic.
I have also found a lady, an older lady, not some young teen, who runs a great YouTube channel. Go Keto With Casey Her website is CASEY DURANGO. I feel her to be an excellent role model for the more mature person and am enjoying learning from her.
Anyway, time to go for a walk and keep my standards high!